As little as he likes the mission, which asks the soldiers explicitly to draw fire so that they can figure out where the Vietcong are hiding, Gearhart follows through on it faithfully. And his soldiers follow him, not because they’re eager to face this danger, but because he’s earned their trust and respect. As they move, Perry reflects on death. Although he still thinks about it a lot, and he still doesn’t want to die, the panicked terror he used to feel has faded at least a little bit through exposure. And despite his fears, he finds ways to keep himself going forward.