Turtles All the Way Down

by

John Green

Bacteria (C. diff) Symbol Analysis

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Aza shares with the reader that the human body is made up of about 50% bacteria; essentially, half of a person's cells aren't technically that person. Aza's OCD makes this knowledge unbearable for her and she's obsessed with keeping herself as clean and bacteria-free as possible. The way she conceptualizes bacteria as controlling, invasive, and malicious symbolize a literal split in Aza's identity: the bacteria provide Aza proof that her identity is not her own.

Bacteria (C. diff) Quotes in Turtles All the Way Down

The Turtles All the Way Down quotes below all refer to the symbol of Bacteria (C. diff). For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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Chapter 1 Quotes

... and meanwhile I was thinking that if half the cells inside of you are not you, doesn't that challenge the whole notion of me as a singular pronoun, let alone the author of my fate?

Related Characters: Aza Holmes (speaker), Daisy, Mychal
Related Symbols: Bacteria (C. diff), Circles and Spirals
Page Number: 5
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Chapter 12 Quotes

His bacteria would be in me forever, eighty million of them, breeding and growing and joining my bacteria and producing God knows what.

Related Characters: Aza Holmes (speaker), Davis Pickett Jr.
Related Symbols: Bacteria (C. diff), Circles and Spirals
Page Number: 153
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Chapter 17 Quotes

It was saying that my bacteria were affecting my thinking--maybe not directly, but through the information they told my gut to send to my brain. Maybe you're not even thinking this thought. Maybe your thinking's infected.

Related Characters: Aza Holmes (speaker)
Related Symbols: Bacteria (C. diff), Circles and Spirals
Page Number: 210
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Bacteria (C. diff) Symbol Timeline in Turtles All the Way Down

The timeline below shows where the symbol Bacteria (C. diff) appears in Turtles All the Way Down. The colored dots and icons indicate which themes are associated with that appearance.
Chapter 1
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...her best friend since elementary school. Aza shivers as she realizes she can hear the bacteria in her stomach digesting her sandwich. (full context)
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...she's been listening to the conversation, but instead thinks only about the sounds of the bacteria inside her. She explains that humans are made up of about 50% bacteria. Aza's palms... (full context)
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Aza explains that excessive abdominal noise can be a symptom of an infection from the bacteria known as Clostridium difficile. She pulls out her phone and rereads the Wikipedia article about... (full context)
Chapter 2
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On her way to history class, Aza checks the "Human Microbiota" Wikipedia article again. Her mom yells at her from her classroom to put her phone... (full context)
Chapter 8
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...if her thoughts are impeding her daily life. Aza describes her thoughts of cleanliness and bacteria and not being able to find the part of her that's clean, which she thinks... (full context)
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...Aza tunes out and wonders if the twinge in her stomach means she has a C. diff infection. She feels she must read the case study from a woman who had no... (full context)
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Dr. Singh immediately tells Aza she doesn't have C. diff , and runs through the symptoms with Aza. Aza nods but thinks that Dr. Singh... (full context)
Chapter 9
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...from herself because she's stuck in her body. She tells Davis about a type of bacteria that lives in fish that causes infected fish to try to get eaten by birds.... (full context)
Chapter 12
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...mouth. She begins to spiral and thinks she needs to check to see if his microbes stay in her body. She tries to resist but finally, the spiral wins and she... (full context)
Chapter 13
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...recounts her experience making out with Davis and how grossed out she is that his bacteria will be a part of her forever. Dr. Singh says it's a fear of intimacy.... (full context)
Chapter 14
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...texting him. Daisy says that kissing is gross when Aza describes it in terms of bacteria, but she suggests that maybe it's making Aza healthier. Aza wonders if kissing will get... (full context)
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...a blizzard, and her thoughts are the same way. She thinks about Davis's saliva and bacteria and finally excuses herself to the bathroom. Noah is playing a video game and calls... (full context)
Chapter 17
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...article that talks about the "gut-brain informational axis," which is the relationship between someone's gut bacteria and their thoughts. The thought that Aza's bacteria are indirectly controlling her thoughts is horrifying... (full context)
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Aza's brain reminds her that clearing out healthy bacteria can make room for malicious bacteria like C. diff. Her stomach hurts and she tries... (full context)
Chapter 19
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...she stay, and Aza tries to tell herself that she's at low risk for a C. diff infection and will leave healthier than she arrived. (full context)
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...asleep in the recliner next to the hospital bed. Aza can feel Mom's breath and microbes floating over her cheek. Mom wakes up momentarily to check on Aza, and then goes... (full context)
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...to turn one's thoughts away from someone. Aza thinks that it's how she thinks about C. diff and it's not romantic at all. (full context)
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...pain meds. Aza doesn't text back, but continues to fixate on her potential for a C. diff infection. She pinches her finger, but it doesn't work to make her feel real. (full context)
Chapter 20
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...and Aza thinks she's better until she feels nauseous. Her brain tells her that the bacteria are already inside her and are going to kill her. She manages to tell Mom... (full context)
Chapter 22
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...Applebee's and hugs Davis. Aza thinks that Davis is going to want to "put his bacteria in her mouth." She remembers Dr. Singh saying that unwanted thoughts are like cars on... (full context)