Just as Bendrix weaponized hatred in his quest to hurt Sarah and Henry, Sarah tries to weaponize love; more specifically, Sarah wants to take what God loves about her and use it to hurt him by destroying it. At the same time, Sarah reveals her one great insecurity: she believes that she is unlovable. This also helps explain why she feels so compelled to have affairs—it’s not just for sexual fulfillment, but to feel loved and to make herself believe that something about herself
is loveable.