Bendrix admits to himself that he is praying to a God that he still claims not to believe in, which echoes what Sarah wrote in her diary about her prayer and vow to God on the night Bendrix was injured in the air raid. Furthermore, Bendrix becomes preoccupied with making God understand that he, Bendrix, had once been the one in possession of Sarah and was thus an important part of her life—a part that God had no place in. But at the same time, Bendrix’s fixation on talking to God shows that God
does still have a place in Bendrix’s relationship with Sarah, even after her death.