In addition to the straightforward grief of losing his daughter, his family, and the good life they had together, Merry’s act of terrorism also forced the Swede into an existential crisis. Before the bombing, Jerry suggests, life had been a fairly rational thing to the Swede: he worked hard, and he reaped the rewards of that hard work. Merry’s senseless act of violence stirred all kinds of complicated, irrational feelings in the Swede and totally shattered his straightforward understanding of the world. How could a good girl like Merry who was raised by such sensible parents commit such an evil act? How could he continue to love her in light of the evil she had committed? There are no satisfying, obvious answers to these questions the Swede must have asked himself, and for the first time, he can’t account for why his life turned out the way it did.